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Jeanette's Story
On July 16, 1971 a baby boy was born to me in Pierre, South Dakota. It was a traumatizing time to be in a small town and to be pregnant out of wedlock. My parents wanted me to give the baby up for adoption, I was so torn. I wanted to keep him and raise him but since I was not married it was frowned upon and discouraged. So, against my better judgment I signed the papers to relinquish my first born son. Walking out of that hospital felt like I was truly abandoning my child.
I moved to Louisiana, married and had 2 more beautiful baby boys. My world was complete except for that nagging feeling of something missing. I often wondered if the son I gave up was anything like the sons I was raising. Did they look alike, did they have the same interests.
I did not tell my children about the son I gave up until my oldest son was 17. That is when I started my search. Once they were okay with everything and it was out in the open I began a search that would not take very long.
South Dakota is not a highly populated state and therefore finding out where my son was raised was easy once I received my non-identifying information. Within a year I found him. He was living in New York and going to the university. We corresponded thru mail for several months, moved to email then phone calls. To be able to talk to him on the phone was a thrill. I just could hardly believe that that voice was the little baby I gave up so many years ago.
After corresponding for a little over a year we met. It was an okay reunion. Nothing earth shattering. He was very busy with his life and did not want any intrusions. I was hoping for more. About 6 months after our reunion he asked for no contact. I was very hurt by this. He never seemed to want to know anything about me or my life, what I like, disliked my hobbies, etc. He seemed to meet me to ease my mind and maybe he was a little curious.
I send him birthday cards but I do not get any response. He will always be in my heart and I will always desire to have a relationship with him no matter how small.
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